I know so many of you sweet followers will say there is no need to apologize, as it’s my blog, but I feel the urge to. I am sorry my blog has taken on a bit of a dark tone lately.
I know there are now 60+ thousand followers (why??? you guys are amazing), but in the end this blog is still what it began as, my journal.
80% of my day I have to keep it together, function as an adult and act. Which I can do, but when I’m breaking inside, this is one of the few places I can peel back my skin and expose everything inside that has to stay buried most of the time. It is theraputic for me.
I am doing my best to stop crying and I have moments of feeling strong. No matter what I am taking all of this to drive me, not destroy me, even though it feels like that a lot of the time. The only thing I have control over is myself, and I want to live more, love more, be more, ask for more, give more.
So between my tears, I drink my water, ride my bike, force myself to eat, meditate, soul search, and accept everything I’m feeling, the good and the bad.
Thank you, for all of you that have stuck around, and accept both parts of me as well. It means much more than words.
(and a shout out and love to all of my followers going through rough times themselves. We got this. Somehow.)